25 thoughts

This is going to be a really different kind of post than I usually put out there, but I am struggling falling asleep tonight and I cannot pinpoint what it is exactly that is keeping me up so I’m just going to throw a bunch of things at you.  I consider all of you close friends, so are you ready? Pull up a chair…this might be a doozy!

1.  My sweet innocent 5 year old son asked me today how people die.  If you heard a noise…it was just a piece of my heart  breaking.  

2.  I want him to continue to live in a world where everything is perfect.

3.  But, I know that is so far from the truth.

4.  I sat him down and tried to explain in terms that he would understand about life, death and heaven.

5.  We talked a lot about his daddy’s mommy that passed away in 2002.  I wrote about her here.

6.  We looked at pictures and he asked questions about her and it ended up being a really wonderful conversation.

7.  It was strange because we have not discussed what happened in Boston with him…in fact, we have done quite the opposite and avoided all news programs and talking about it when he is around or listening, but it was like he knew something was up.

8.  Boston…there are absolutely no words.

9.  I read Jesus Calling everyday and after I heard about the explosions, I turned to it…it read

…from your limited human perspective, it may look as if I’m mismanaging things.  But you don’t know what I know or see what I see.  If I pulled back the curtain to allow you to view heavenly realms, you would understand much more.  However, I designed you to live by faith, not by sight.  I lovingly shield you from knowing the future or seeing into the spirit world.  Acknowledge My sovereignty by giving thanks in all circumstances.

10.  This helped me and I put it out there because maybe it will help you, too.

11.  I’m still praying for you, Boston.

12.  Wow…this is pretty nitty gritty stuff…no wonder I couldn’t sleep.

13.  I also just finished an insanely hard work out…maybe that’s why I feel amped up.

14.  Although most say that after a late night work out they crash HARD.

15.  The work out is part of a boot camp I signed up for…

16.  Get this…it’s called Mudder Brute Camp.  It is insanely hard.

17.  So, I don’t run, right.  Never been a huge fan.  The first night of this lovely boot camp, the trainer said “first up, we are         going to warm up and then take a short 3 mile jog just to see where everyone is at”

18.  My jaw may have hit the pavement and my inner non-runner self was screaming !?!?!????!  very loudly in my skull.

19.  Needless to say…I came in LAST…so incredibly far behind everyone else.  Can you say embarrassing???

20.  After the horror, I immediately called my sister and my mother to laugh harder than I have ever laughed before.  They know I am no runner and the thought of me running 3 miles was beyond hilarious.

21.  We were doing that awesome silent laugh when you are laughing so hard, there is nothing but tears coming down and you may actually snort just to breathe…especially after I told them that when I walked back into the gym after finishing LAST that the trainer may or may not have recruited someone else to stand there and clap for me when I came through the door.

22.  My inner self was still screaming ?!?!?!??!??!?.  And perhaps “please stop clapping and drawing more attention to my awesomeness”.

23.  I have not quit…I mean I wouldn’t want anyone else to have to come in that horrid last spot…the way I see it, I ‘m doing them all a favor. ;)

24.  I told my sister, I will never again see a Road Rules/Real World challenge (uh huh…I still might watch that show occasionally) and yell at the person that is walking.  I used to think…”how hard can running up that ginormous mountain be?”

25.  Thank you, friends, for listening…even though there was no pictures to look at…thank you for being there for me to get things off my chest.  Love you guys.  ;)

25 insights into this Scout & Nimble girl

I am in the midst of project overload so I thought it was time for another 25 things…

  1. If I am ever walking after it has recently rained, I, for some reason, feel like I need to save all those dumb worms that look stranded in the middle of the dry sidewalks to prevent them from dying what I imagine is a horrible death.
  2. I have no idea if I am doing them a favor by moving them back to one side of the sidewalk into the grass…who knows maybe they were trying to get across to the other side of the sidewalk where their families are patiently waiting?  Does anyone else do this or think this way or is it just me?
  3. And yes, I’m sure I look crazy stopping every 5 seconds to save a silly worm.
  4. I’ve always considered myself to have a great fairly good memory so I often wonder why it is such a process for me to leave the house…it takes me getting in the car only to run back in the house 5 different times for something else that I forgot.
  5. Once again, yes, I’m sure I look quite ridiculous doing this, too…
  6. My son on the other hand can get in a bed full of “his toys” and without so much as a glance, realizes that goblin or turtle is missing and then he can tell me exactly where said toy is…like, “on the side of the bathtub in your bathroom, mama” or “in the car under the dinosaur book”….I mean, really???
  7. Maybe I should give him a list of everything that needs to walk out the door with us so I could end the “car to house” daily dash routine that I am currently doing.
  8. My favorite product right now is…da da da DAAA The Vitamix!  Surprise, surprise…I.seriously.cannot.stop.talking.about.this.machine.what.is.wrong.with.me?!! 
  9. Every night before bed, I eat a spoon full of almond butter. This guy said that it could make 4 hours of sleep feel like 8 hours of sleep…don’t ask…something to do with blood sugar, but bottom line…I’m happy to say, it works.
  10. Why couldn’t anyone have shared that piece of information with me when I was up all hours of the night feeding babies?  New moms take note.
  11. I have not a single tattoo…not because I don’t like them or anything…it more or less has to do with me not being a superfan of needles.
  12. I love getting lost in a great book…I just recently finished The Fault in Our Stars by John Green (which was a good little read) and I am currently reading Behind the Beautiful Forevers by Katherine Boo and Gone with the Wind by Margaret Mitchell…only because someone recently gasped at me when I said that I had never read it.  <ugh…peer pressure>
  13. All I am hearing about, though, is The Hunger Games…until recently I had no clue what this even was (try to withhold your gasping)…so tell me this…am I missing out?  What’s all this craze about?
  14. I love coconut anything.  One of my favorite drinks is coconut rum with coconut juice. Not only is is oh so low cal, but the potassium in the coconut juice helps prevent you from feeling hungover the next day…brilliant, I say!  **Warning…not for someone who doesn’t love coconut-ey things…Sam calls this suntan lotion in a cup, but I think it is absolutely perfect, light and refreshing.
  15. Since we are on the subject of spirits…I am a huge fan of wine, but, deep down, I am a beer girl through and through.  Being born and raised in the Midwest can do that to you, I guess.
  16. I am completely over painting our living room.  It’s not that it is really that hard, it is just so time consuming.  This probably isn’t a good thing considering I have the 20 foot high wall along the staircase to do next.
  17. I might freak if I don’t finish by this weekend.
  18. You’re asking why I don’t hire someone to finish it?  Well, I have this little math equation that I do in my head whenever I start a new project.  The equation takes into account effort, time, $, skill, etc…and helps me make a decision whether to do it myself or hire someone to do it for me.
  19. I’m now thinking there is a flaw in this equation…it may need some tweaking.  Boo.  Maybe I will hire someone to do the wall that seems to go on forever.
  20. You’ll never believe what I did to myself the day I took the boys to the park… ***WARNING…if you don’t like looking at pictures of bruises, avert your eyes from this next pic…***  And please, not that you would, try to refrain from zooming in on this picture.  My leg was so sore that I didn’t even shave this day…gross, I know.
  21. Thank God I was alone because A.  it didn’t look pretty when I did it and B.  I probably would have for sure started crying if anyone had asked, “are you okay???”.    Looking back I think I forced some air out of my lungs and thought, did I just break my leg?  Total Dale move, I tell ya.  For future reference, don’t try to climb the metal swirly thingy at the park when your shoes are slightly damp.
  22. Then because I am a bit of an anxious person, I worried for the next couple of days that I was going to suffer from a blood clot.
  23. And I will have to cut this short because I am hearing my boys start to wake up from their naps and I promised them some Orange Leaf frozen yogurt when they woke up.
  24. This is also the same place where Henry told someone with Tourette’s Syndrome that she wasn’t going to get any ice cream if she continued screaming…and you know kids, they do not have a quiet voice so really he told all the customers…slightly uncomfortable, but I had just talked to him about not screaming when we were out in public…what are the odds?
  25. Fingers crossed that they have the coconut flavor today…

25 Random thoughts…

  1. I got hit by a semi truck called influenza on Thursday and literally have been in my bed ever since…that is, until I was forced out due to the stomach bug attacking Sam Sam the now pukey man.  But, thankfully, I got Tamiflu within 24 hours of my symptoms, so today I am feeling so much better.
  2. To make matters worse, my little Ah-ber is still sick…poor kid is now going on 1 week + of high fevers.
  3. All of this is just such great timing, that it’s laughable.  If I didn’t laugh, I’m afraid I would cry.
  4. Funny that it is times like these, that I am reminded just how lucky we are…and I pray for those families that are dealing with chronically ill children…my heart and prayers go out to you and I am so inspired by your strength and tenacity.
  5. I am so thankful for my family…my sweet brother came over to get Henry to take him out to get a toy and to McDonald’s in order to help Sam and I out.  Michael, you are the BEST!  Henry thinks you pretty much rule the school.  Which you do.
  6. I guess I have not really watched live tv very much anymore because I was AMAZED at all the infomercials…the MyZone headphone one did manage to get a chuckle out of me.  The fact that all of the people are positioned like a foot from the television was perhaps the best, followed closely by the guy mowing the lawn with his headphones on so he could still listen to the tv.  Hilarious.
  7. Because I cannot formulate coherent thoughts, I’d thought I’d write 25 things so you can learn a little bit more about me, but so far it’s only been about illness…sorry.
  8. I got about 6 inches cut off my hair on Thursday…my hair was getting reaaaally long.  Like, House on the Prairie long.  This was before I was body slammed by this nasty little virus.
  9. Speaking of cutting hair, do you happen (I’m sure you do) to know Ashley?  If you do not, you really must.  You should definitely check out her rite of passage video. She is so incredibly talented, inspiring, hilarious, honest and such a courageous woman.
  10. She has actually inspired me to tackle something that has been on my “want to do” list for about 5 years.
  11. What’s sad is I think I was more scared to fail than to take on a project that felt bigger than I could handle.  So when I saw this shirt that was helping raise money for her, I bought it and decided to finally get this huge thing crossed off my “to do” list…it’s about time, huh.

    via Lil Blue Boo

  12. I’ll let you in on the goal here next week.
  13. Now, on to some random facts. Technically, that shouldn’t count as a number.  But, sometimes, I like to break the rules.
  14. Did you know that I cannot stand to watch someone on tv try to do something in a tight space.  Like in Tommy Boy where he is trying to change in that teeny tiny bathroom.  It makes my skin crawl and I am not claustrophobic, but when I watch scenes like that, it makes me feel like I am.
  15. I will fall asleep if you lightly rub on my face…not kidding.
  16. I do not like ice tea…at all…not even sweet tea.  I thought maybe once I became an “adult”, I would start to like it and so far it’s not happening.
  17. My favorite color is oooorange.  Always has been.  I don’t think I was ever a pink girl.
  18. I appreciate and love my birthday.  But, I really hate having a big ole party…this is so so embarrassing, but I think I may have cried more than once when I found out Sam was throwing me a 30th birthday party…I might have even begged asked him to cancel it.  I know, what’s wrong with me?  I really do love celebrating my birthday, but I don’t love being the center of attention so it’s a dilemma for me.  I’m working on it…maybe 33 will be the age that I let it all go?
  19. I love to bake, (although I haven’t done much of it lately).  Cooking and I don’t always see eye to eye.  However, due to my stubbornness determination, I keep trying to strengthen my cooking muscle.  Sometimes I’m successful and other times, I know my family is thankful that I’m awfully skilled at ordering in.
  20. I have a lot of projects going on right now…I think if someone saw our garage, they might mistake us for hoarders.  I have the pictures to prove it.  And everyone on Instagram can be a witness…I had no clue every picture you take is instantly (hence the name of the app) shared with everyone.  Lovely.
  21. I realized while I was going through my photos the other day, that I forgot to share a few projects with all of you…oops.  My bad and don’t worry, I’ll share. The whole time I was looking through the pics, I kept saying to myself, dude get on that already.
  22. Yes, I often call myself dude.
  23. Oddly enough, sharing (in certain instances) has never been my strong suit.  My mom even saved my kindergarten report card where the teacher wrote, “Jesse has a hard time sharing with the other children…”
  24. I would say that most people would categorize me as a fairly shy person…I don’t necessarily think I am shy, it just takes some time for me to really open up to people. Although, I will say the same does not apply on here…here I am an open book.
  25. I often find that one of my boys is usually dressed similar to me…I don’t do it on purpose at all.  I will sit in front of their closet and the brown shirt and army green pants will jump out at me.  I dress them and then when we are out and someone comments about us all being twinkies, I look and think…holy crap, how did that happen?!?!  I know people think I’m lying when I explain that I totally didn’t mean to match.
  26. Yes, I know I said 25, but remember, I am a rule breaker.  I almost had Oliver in our car…that would have not been kewl at all.  He was born exactly 40 minutes after I had my first contraction.  And it took us about 30 minutes to get to the hospital from the time I had my first contraction.  Yep, that meant no drugs for this mommy.  I am amazed by you women that electively choose for no epidural.  Warriors, I tell ya…cause thatthat hurt pretty bad.

Good thing he’s so cute…and one last picture…just cause Henry was feelin left out

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